Well I am finally home after a very long 5 days in Cape Cod. I love that place with all of my heart, but I just wish the circumstances of my visit were different. The whole five days were filled with funeral details and fighting within my family. At times, I wanted to leave. Not even be around them, but when the time came, we were all there for each other. My sister and I were each other’s crutch at the funeral and decided that no matter what, we would never leave each other’s side.
I haven’t been home in 4 years meaning I hadn’t seen any of my family that lives up there in that long. I never really got to see why family is so important. This whole experience changed my opinion completely. You may want to disown everyone in your family at times, but when the time comes, they are always there to help you get through it. I hugged and held hands with multiple people who I hadn’t seen in over 4 years, but that didn’t make a difference. We were all brought together to mourn the death of and celebrate the life of my Grandfather.
I also realized how much I am going to cherish the time I get to spend with people. Regardless of how old or where someone is, you never know when they’ll be gone. Today I could hang out with someone, and once they leave me, they could be gone forever. No one ever knows when they are going to pass, so you have to live for TODAY, because in some instances, tomorrow may not be an option.
As sad and depressing as this whole event has been, it has definitely changed my outlook on so many key points in life. I hope that everyone can figure this out at some point in their life, and hopefully it is not too late once they do. I regret not being closer to my grandfather towards the end, but after spending so much time with my grandmother, I realize, she’s awesome! I can definitely see where I get my humor. I’ve made a promise to get closer to her, and I will not fail in that. I am cherishing every moment I speak to and see her, as I am with every person.
xo,
Rachel
